the new academic semester has passed by me and is now a week old, and seems to be coming and growing onto me. the fun seems to settle in and so do i…jus have to learn to calm down and be social(though i am with everyone but a bit more is needed) … my vacations, well werent that bad considering that i jus loitered around in my apartment home and spent most of the time in my room (for which i have now been labelled a recluse)…The week was fun as i see the drawing come alive in front of my own eyes…the world still seems a pretty wierd place to be and sometimes i wish i pull my hair out because of the sheer madness this world put me into with its double minded, two faced people who change in a blink of a second and then there are people who for some strange rhyme or reason, or without any, are good to you and actually make an effort to minimize your pain and calm you down and listen to you …met one recently while researching and realized about the other one who has been already there…is it their aura or dunno what which just emits such positive vibes that you tend to just want to scream out ur pains to them…lending a listening ear everytime when needed, i wonder who lends them though i try on my behalf to return twice the love am recieving coz for something i am not deserving, it should be returned with interest and sometimes i wonder how to…someday i would definetly like to ask them, why waste time on boosting up a self pitied guy who seems to do nothing but becomes desparingly hopeless about things and cries on petty issues but not on major ones like death…i mean seriously these both ground me atleast…where do you guys get your energy from? whats the secret? couldnt have asked for a better beginning, hopefully all the optimism and positiveness would help me be a better person and the ‘devdas’ and the ‘depressed soul’ though i feel too that i hope it would help me and the change seems to be working a bit since i have opened up to a few people …though still feel wierd in a crowd or a crowded place, a good company and a person beside you with a positive aura makes all the wierdness worthwhile…i dunno what to say coz Thank you doesnt seem to do justice to that and hopefully you guys will continue to calm this wierd piscean who’s freedom is a bit too much to handle even for himself.
On the other front, people say i need to be in a relationship but at this stage i dunt see myself for u need to be in love and attracted to be in a relationship so am very much single, for the time being….will surely shout off the rooftops when i am in a relationship so all you gossipers look out for that (God now it feels like what movie stars feel like)…Ramchand Pakistani has released in cinemas am hopefully wanting to catch that movie either tomm or day after or otherwise next weekend probably along with Kismet Konnection…i still dress ’sloppy’ and ‘wierd’ and not sleekly and in a chic manner but thats what i feel easy going in and as my parents say no parent will give u their daughter’s hand in marriage and then comes endless example of a ‘friend’ of mine or that i dont dress normally …still trying to become immune to things like that…though its hard to pretend that i am
So that was this week ..jus reached home and had food and now writing this post…
P.S. i am also writing a novel but with ivs along it does seem like an endless journey…lets hope that hopefully it will be an interesting one