a long long time ago…

its been almost two months since i posted anything on the blog, was it laziness or was it not being able to filter down my thoughts to be penned down on the paper or rather typed onto the computer i dunno…maybe there are so many thoughts and things going around in mind that filterin and organizing those thoughts seems like the most difficult thing to do. Two months…well met a few very interesting, diverse intellectuals through this course of life…got to learn new things, hopes, aspiration, life stories, ppl living their life to the fullest, those striking the right balance between things, some caring, some valueing themselves and inspiring me to do the same…hope i do continue to keep in touch with them…seems like am losing touch with some of those whom i held close once … slipping away like sand yet leaving behind the feeling of being in contact with them… the Hopeful beginning hasnt been as hopeful as i thought but hasnt been bad either…midway into it and around 5 weeks to go i think it was an interesting journey,but then again it wouldnt be worth it if it wasnt hard…Am so having second thoughts about my degree of textile design since fine arts is where my heart lies but then again i enjoy doing every bit of it…maybe will combine the two (i do try to though) but it is waited to be seen how that turns up since i hope that the oppurtunity is just arriving around the corner… wanting to discover myself through art is something i am wanting to embark upon and i do try to do that through my work but then again proimarily i would like to do it n focused on it clearing out things in my mind and creating things solely for myself …on the interesting bit an astrologer claimed love wud be entering my life and i had two extreme reactions to that …’finally’ and ‘yea rite’ lets see what happens there:P…a few more names added onto the list of people who all me pessimists and urge me to value myself which does seem sort of absurd to me since i tend to like to believe am much more of a realist than a pessimist…but then again perspective of looking at things does matter too in the context where one calls me pessimist…ending this post i wud say that it was definetly a needed post to boost myself up for writing again